The Scale is Going the Wrong Weigh

Hi my name is Shina and I have a "weight" problem, I cant "wait" to eat!  Ba dum bum!  This is usually my motto, but today I'm so nauseous that I really don't want to eat at all...SURPRISING I know.  I think that I've literally worried myself sick behind the thought of trying to get a beach body that I'm not ashamed of (summer vacation in T minus 11 days!!!).  I've run myself down with my 3 and sometimes 4-a-week gym visits (health buffs don't jump me, this is a lot for a former couch potato) the counting calories and the tedious task of imputing every single bite I take into my handy dandy calorie counting iPhone app, but it was all for naught, I'm still the same size, weight and inches!  I know that its simple math, burn more calories than you take in (said in my extra whiny voice) but for someone like me, who loves food, who stress eats, whose thoughts are consumed by food, who plans her next meal while eating the current item on the menu...uhmm yeah, that's MUCH easier said than done.

A lot of people have a hard time understanding my whole self-imposed weight issues because looking at me, I don't appear to be overweight.  Can they point out areas that could stand some toning up?? Sure they can, but they don't get how or why I call myself fat.  I like to argue that feeling fat is relative; one person's version of fat may not be the next person version of fat.  If a person is not used to carrying around that extra 5 or 10  pounds then of course they feel fat, heavy, sluggish, just blah.  Even though those extra pounds may have landed in all of the right places, if it doesnt feel good to you then by all means, I think you have the right call yourself fat without people judging you.

I hate to say that I've given up on the whole working out thing, so I'll just say that I'm taking a small break and not working as much.  I think I've decided to focus more on the diet side of the weight loss journey and incorporate some cardio along the way.  Let's see how long it takes before I give up on this too!  LOL!